"Love is the passionate and abiding desire on the part of two or more people to produce together conditions under which each can be, and spontaneously express, his real self: to produce together an intellectual soil and an
emotional climate in which each can flourish,
far superior to what either could achieve alone."
From "Apples of Gold" - un-attributed quote
April 2, 2009
March 19, 2009
TPS interview
Sami Bhai suggested me =D
Thank you! =D
http://www.pakspectator.com/interview-with-blogger-arfa-siddiqi/comment-page-1/?wpc=dlc#comment-251245
Thank you! =D
http://www.pakspectator.com/interview-with-blogger-arfa-siddiqi/comment-page-1/?wpc=dlc#comment-251245
February 11, 2009
This poem means so much to me..
I didn't write this..you might find out who did, but..this is the best gift that person could give me..thank you so much =)..it's just perfect. If only you knew how much you make me happy .. =)
How I wish the storm would settle
And the ship would return
How I wish the wind would blow gently
And take the rain clouds away
How I wish the flowers would blossom
And contrast the thin grass blades
How I wish the moon would shine more
And the tides rock the dreamers
How I wish for a new dawn
And the sun would set peacefully
How I wish things were different
Just for you
How I wish I could make you smile
From your heart
And how I wish I could add colour to your life
Like you do to mine
Oh how I wish..
How I wish the storm would settle
And the ship would return
How I wish the wind would blow gently
And take the rain clouds away
How I wish the flowers would blossom
And contrast the thin grass blades
How I wish the moon would shine more
And the tides rock the dreamers
How I wish for a new dawn
And the sun would set peacefully
How I wish things were different
Just for you
How I wish I could make you smile
From your heart
And how I wish I could add colour to your life
Like you do to mine
Oh how I wish..
Shielding Tomorrow
Shielding Tomorrow
Feed my oblivious mind with lies of tomorrow,
Rif my anticipation of further sorrows.
Try as you may but you fail again;
You cannot make me see the beauty of tomorrow.
You observe the sky,
The moon and stars in all their glory.
Your hear the crashing waves on the shore,
The feeling of wet sand so cold.
I see no moon, I see no stars
Only the sheer brilliance of my loving heart.
No crashing waves, no thunder skies
Only the stormy depths of my silent cries.
Life's happier side is filled with lies,
For every day ends with night.
Each blossoming flower falls from grace,
Come autumn there lingers a ghostly haze.
So fill not my mind with lies of tomorrow,
Rid not my anticipation of future sorrows.
In pain I prepare myself,
To shield the ambush of tomorrow.
11.2.09
Wednesday
2.25 am.
Feed my oblivious mind with lies of tomorrow,
Rif my anticipation of further sorrows.
Try as you may but you fail again;
You cannot make me see the beauty of tomorrow.
You observe the sky,
The moon and stars in all their glory.
Your hear the crashing waves on the shore,
The feeling of wet sand so cold.
I see no moon, I see no stars
Only the sheer brilliance of my loving heart.
No crashing waves, no thunder skies
Only the stormy depths of my silent cries.
Life's happier side is filled with lies,
For every day ends with night.
Each blossoming flower falls from grace,
Come autumn there lingers a ghostly haze.
So fill not my mind with lies of tomorrow,
Rid not my anticipation of future sorrows.
In pain I prepare myself,
To shield the ambush of tomorrow.
11.2.09
Wednesday
2.25 am.
Lifeless Existence
Lifeless Existence
A thousand years in the continuity of life,
A thousand summers bloomed.
Dewy freshness and dancing peacocks,
Crumpled autumn leaves.
And so a lifetime be gone
Except here I stand questioning the Heavens above;
"Hallowed be Thy Name
Why this lifeless existence?"
"Why teacheth Thou this heart to beat?
Why teacheth Thou this heart to bleed?
Why giveth Thou this soul to be?
Why giveth Thou this mortal heed?"
Shooting meteors and turning fates,
Buried morals and broken spirits,
All but one remains firmly unshaken;
Questions of a lifeless existence.
11.2.09
Wednesday.
2:00 a.m.
A thousand years in the continuity of life,
A thousand summers bloomed.
Dewy freshness and dancing peacocks,
Crumpled autumn leaves.
And so a lifetime be gone
Except here I stand questioning the Heavens above;
"Hallowed be Thy Name
Why this lifeless existence?"
"Why teacheth Thou this heart to beat?
Why teacheth Thou this heart to bleed?
Why giveth Thou this soul to be?
Why giveth Thou this mortal heed?"
Shooting meteors and turning fates,
Buried morals and broken spirits,
All but one remains firmly unshaken;
Questions of a lifeless existence.
11.2.09
Wednesday.
2:00 a.m.
February 7, 2009
The Elucidations Of A Saint
The Elucidations Of A Saint
I see it, I see the pain behind her topaz eyes.
Marked by a chasm in destiny, one life never expected.
I see it, I see the abysmal despair.
And if it bore some fruit to barter hearts, I would do it, I would do it all for you. Alas! We're two broken souls in one body. Two broken souls with two broken hearts.
I see it, I see through your mask;
The broken bits of that loving heart.
Where does it come from? The strength to move along?
To pretend nothing ever went wrong?
I know you're hurting. I see those tears.
I see the shadows of your broken past.
You give, and you give more.
Neglecting your pining heart.
And I stand at a distance, and glance.
I stare, wishing to fill your world with love.
Wishing to give you happiness so vast,
That no starry night, no moon, no sun, no falling star could compare it's brilliance.
No star could fathom its depth.
No weight could measure its purity.
I wish to give it all to you,
Alas! It happens not.
Blood binds us, and yet you push me away.
Out of your world, out of your life.
Why the fear to let go?
Why the desire to take it all in?
Why the choice to suffer for those who let your soul burn and fall to ashes?
You walk away, leaving me but one answer:
The elucidations of a saint.
3:03 am
7th February, 2009
Saturday.
I see it, I see the pain behind her topaz eyes.
Marked by a chasm in destiny, one life never expected.
I see it, I see the abysmal despair.
And if it bore some fruit to barter hearts, I would do it, I would do it all for you. Alas! We're two broken souls in one body. Two broken souls with two broken hearts.
I see it, I see through your mask;
The broken bits of that loving heart.
Where does it come from? The strength to move along?
To pretend nothing ever went wrong?
I know you're hurting. I see those tears.
I see the shadows of your broken past.
You give, and you give more.
Neglecting your pining heart.
And I stand at a distance, and glance.
I stare, wishing to fill your world with love.
Wishing to give you happiness so vast,
That no starry night, no moon, no sun, no falling star could compare it's brilliance.
No star could fathom its depth.
No weight could measure its purity.
I wish to give it all to you,
Alas! It happens not.
Blood binds us, and yet you push me away.
Out of your world, out of your life.
Why the fear to let go?
Why the desire to take it all in?
Why the choice to suffer for those who let your soul burn and fall to ashes?
You walk away, leaving me but one answer:
The elucidations of a saint.
3:03 am
7th February, 2009
Saturday.
February 5, 2009
January 8, 2009
Ay Tee Fairy
I BUMCONE YOU!
Braceface XD says: Nothing can compare to when you roll the dice and swear that your bumcone's for me!
ROTFL!
Braceface XD says: Nothing can compare to when you roll the dice and swear that your bumcone's for me!
ROTFL!
January 3, 2009
Hijab- The Confession
This post was really hard for me to write, because, it is, in a way, a sort of confession for me.
I have worn the Hijab many times in my life, as a kid in Grade 4 or 5, and then taken it off. I started wearing it again in Grade 7, until a few months back, and again it's off.
I have searched for reasons to figure out why I'm so confused about wearing the Hijab when clearly, Allah has commanded all believing women to cover their Awra.
I realized that it was for certain reasons, some personal experiences in my life that have led to these confused actions. But this doesn't mean that I'm not God-fearing, or modest, or that I'm loose, because my Allah knows my character, and He Alone, is my judge. It just means that I do not have the required level of spiritual strength yet, and inshAllah, I shall have that one day. I'm praying everyday to Allah swt to give me the Guidance, the Tofiq, and the strength to start the Hijab once again and to never stop wearing it. I want to, I really want to wear the Hijab. And I still have the urge to wear it somedays, but I don't want it to last just a few days. I want to wear it forever, inshAllah, and so I'm waiting, crushing my impulsive acts and waiting to gain the strength to wear it once and for all. I respect the Hijab, and I respect Allah's wishes, and I wish to be a Hijabi.
Thing is, I know that boys will be boys, they will stare at you even if you're covered, wearing decent clothes, wearing the Hijab. I have noticed it, from personal experience. But, just because thieves will be thieves doesn't mean you should leave your jewels unguarded. Same thing with the Hijab.
However, I do dress modestly, except that I don't cover my hair. I do dress decently, and not provocatively, and I do feel guilty not wearing the Hijab. I wear the Abaya when I'm dressed up quite fancy to avoid attention. I want to wear the Hijab I want to wear it when I am completely and truly ready, from my heart, body, mind and soul. I pray to Allah to fill my heart with the power of Islam, for the True Faith to enter my heart and for it to never leave me. For the Qur'an to become embedded in my soul. I request all of you to pray for me, that I get enough strength to start the Hijab once and for all. I don't want to wear the Hijab because of pressure from culture or religious societies. I don't want to wear the Hijab because certain "liked" people wear it. I want to wear the Hijab for Allah swt and for His pleasure, from my entire heart and soul.
Also, Hijab is not just an item of clothing, it's an attitude, a way of life. I have, Elhumdulillah, started by first practising my religion. I want to correct my character first, be a practising Muslim, and then slowly get to what is the hardest- Jihad-an-Nafs, fighting your inner desires- which is here Hijab.
I hate it when people pressure or question other people about their Hijab (in a condescending way, that is, not if you ask or question it in a friendly way).I mean, drop the holier-than-thou attitude because that's not part of the Hijab package, my friend. Just because you wear the Hijab doesn't make you a better Muslim/person than me. A lot of it has to do with how you don't hurt others feelings, don't be selfish and always see your gain instead of others, etc. (This part is directed towards a certain someone I know, not on this blogger though, so don't worry, any of you =) )
A hijab is a personal choice, and no matter what people say about following a religion how it is prescribed, (yes, you should, though) but YOU are no one to judge or question. A religion is a personal matter b/w Allah swt and the follower, so who are you to judge/question/pressure. Advice, but don't judge, because only Allah swt has the right to do that.
Fa in the end, I just pray to Allah to give me and other Muslimahs the strength to be better, practising Muslims, and to give us all the Hidayah, Ameen.
This was one thing that had been bothering me for a while now, and I just wished to let it out
I have worn the Hijab many times in my life, as a kid in Grade 4 or 5, and then taken it off. I started wearing it again in Grade 7, until a few months back, and again it's off.
I have searched for reasons to figure out why I'm so confused about wearing the Hijab when clearly, Allah has commanded all believing women to cover their Awra.
I realized that it was for certain reasons, some personal experiences in my life that have led to these confused actions. But this doesn't mean that I'm not God-fearing, or modest, or that I'm loose, because my Allah knows my character, and He Alone, is my judge. It just means that I do not have the required level of spiritual strength yet, and inshAllah, I shall have that one day. I'm praying everyday to Allah swt to give me the Guidance, the Tofiq, and the strength to start the Hijab once again and to never stop wearing it. I want to, I really want to wear the Hijab. And I still have the urge to wear it somedays, but I don't want it to last just a few days. I want to wear it forever, inshAllah, and so I'm waiting, crushing my impulsive acts and waiting to gain the strength to wear it once and for all. I respect the Hijab, and I respect Allah's wishes, and I wish to be a Hijabi.
Thing is, I know that boys will be boys, they will stare at you even if you're covered, wearing decent clothes, wearing the Hijab. I have noticed it, from personal experience. But, just because thieves will be thieves doesn't mean you should leave your jewels unguarded. Same thing with the Hijab.
However, I do dress modestly, except that I don't cover my hair. I do dress decently, and not provocatively, and I do feel guilty not wearing the Hijab. I wear the Abaya when I'm dressed up quite fancy to avoid attention. I want to wear the Hijab I want to wear it when I am completely and truly ready, from my heart, body, mind and soul. I pray to Allah to fill my heart with the power of Islam, for the True Faith to enter my heart and for it to never leave me. For the Qur'an to become embedded in my soul. I request all of you to pray for me, that I get enough strength to start the Hijab once and for all. I don't want to wear the Hijab because of pressure from culture or religious societies. I don't want to wear the Hijab because certain "liked" people wear it. I want to wear the Hijab for Allah swt and for His pleasure, from my entire heart and soul.
Also, Hijab is not just an item of clothing, it's an attitude, a way of life. I have, Elhumdulillah, started by first practising my religion. I want to correct my character first, be a practising Muslim, and then slowly get to what is the hardest- Jihad-an-Nafs, fighting your inner desires- which is here Hijab.
I hate it when people pressure or question other people about their Hijab (in a condescending way, that is, not if you ask or question it in a friendly way).I mean, drop the holier-than-thou attitude because that's not part of the Hijab package, my friend. Just because you wear the Hijab doesn't make you a better Muslim/person than me. A lot of it has to do with how you don't hurt others feelings, don't be selfish and always see your gain instead of others, etc. (This part is directed towards a certain someone I know, not on this blogger though, so don't worry, any of you =) )
A hijab is a personal choice, and no matter what people say about following a religion how it is prescribed, (yes, you should, though) but YOU are no one to judge or question. A religion is a personal matter b/w Allah swt and the follower, so who are you to judge/question/pressure. Advice, but don't judge, because only Allah swt has the right to do that.
Fa in the end, I just pray to Allah to give me and other Muslimahs the strength to be better, practising Muslims, and to give us all the Hidayah, Ameen.
This was one thing that had been bothering me for a while now, and I just wished to let it out
January 2, 2009
Four shor ji =P
AT Fairy tagged me:-
4 Places I Go to Over and Over Again
4. Deira City Centre
3. School
2. Bathroom (you really wanna know why?)
1. Grand Mart (to buy daily grocery stuff)
4 People Who Mail Me Regularly
4. Tanees
3. Rabie
2. Naina
1. Meena
4 of My Favourite Places to Eat (Apart from Home)
4. Malbari ka koi bhi cafe :P
3. Chili's
2. Shop 'n' Save cafe
1. Chicago Uno Grill
4 Places I’d Rather be Now
4. Bed
3. Turkey
2. Deira City Centre
1. Beach
4 Favourite TV Shows
4. see no. 3
3. I don't watch tv..
2. see above.
1. Friends
4 Movies I Could Watch Again and Again
4. Khuda Kai Liye <3
3. Andaaz Apna Apna
2. Rang De Basanti <3
1. Twilight <3 <3 <3
I tag:
Richa
Rabie
Memo
Mubi =D
4 Places I Go to Over and Over Again
4. Deira City Centre
3. School
2. Bathroom (you really wanna know why?)
1. Grand Mart (to buy daily grocery stuff)
4 People Who Mail Me Regularly
4. Tanees
3. Rabie
2. Naina
1. Meena
4 of My Favourite Places to Eat (Apart from Home)
4. Malbari ka koi bhi cafe :P
3. Chili's
2. Shop 'n' Save cafe
1. Chicago Uno Grill
4 Places I’d Rather be Now
4. Bed
3. Turkey
2. Deira City Centre
1. Beach
4 Favourite TV Shows
4. see no. 3
3. I don't watch tv..
2. see above.
1. Friends
4 Movies I Could Watch Again and Again
4. Khuda Kai Liye <3
3. Andaaz Apna Apna
2. Rang De Basanti <3
1. Twilight <3 <3 <3
I tag:
Richa
Rabie
Memo
Mubi =D
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